about fandom

Yeah, I’m 33 and STILL LOVE BOYBANDS… so what??

I guess if you read my other posts you’ll know by know that boyband is not my only hobbies. I read comics, I watch anime (a lot) and collecting anime merchandise as you can read here or here in case you never read or you forgot. The most common comment that I get is: “My goodness!! You’re already 33 and you still like this kind of stuff? Grow up!!”

So does liking boybands etc means that I haven’t grown up? Does reading comics & watching anime means that I’m childish? I’m sorry to burst your bubble, but I can say that people who really know me say that I’m very mature. Even when I was in my teens, my parents’ friends used to envy my parents over my maturity compared to their children. I’m not bragging, but that’s the truth.

And how bad is my obsession over boybands? I’d say normal. I listen to their music most of the time, I read the latest gossip or news on them, I watch subbed variety shows that they’re in and laugh over their silliness or idiocy. I bought original CDs/DVDs ONLY if I think they price is sensible, and that’s why I never bought Japanese original stuff! (unless for a couple of CDs) Japanese merchandise’s price are crazy if not overboard! No thanks… I have to thank that technology that enables me to download all those yummy stuff over the internet.

Yes there are some crazy people out there who can’t seem to differentiate between fandom and reality. And I’m happy to say that (I think) I’m not one of them. At least it’s still OK for me if there’s any gossip of them dating. I mean, they’re only human, they surely need someone special just like we, common people, do don’t you think? They have desires too, and if they’re dating women that’s good, cause that means that they’re normal he3x

I don’t dream of being able to use “rasengan” or do “bankai”… of course sometimes I joke around with my friends’ kids, pretending that I can do those but I do realize that I’m no Naruto nor Kurosaki Ichigo. I am Tresia and I am happy just to be myself. While watching the series I sometimes wish that we -- the real people -- could be as nice or as strong as those anime characters. I’m not ashamed to admit that sometimes those characters can change me too. I admire Naruto’s perseverance & loyalty. I sympathize over Ichigo’s trauma of losing his mother. And I wish I could show my love to my brother openly like Shou does to Yuri. But I never imagine myself to be them.

I’m proud of who I am. Despite my hobbies, I do my job seriously. I have a great job at a good firm. So who says that I’m just a childish & non-realistic fangirl?

By the way, if I ever meet DBSK, I have 3 wishes:

1) I want to pinch Junsu’s cheeks.

2) I want to be hugged by Yunho from behind.

3) I want to sing Love In The Ice or Begin with them.

There!! *fangirlmode: ON*

D-Day

Went to see another obgyn last Friday... After the checking & back to our discussion he asked me: "So, what do you want to hear from me?" I said: "I just need a confirmation, surgery or no surgery? I've heard surgery from 1 doctor. Now you tell me it's a yes or a no? That's all I need to hear to convince myself." Doctor: "I'm sorry but YES!" 2:0 for surgery... there we go.

So I called the hospital this morning and scheduled it on June 13. So far the surgery room is available, the room is on waitlist (they told me that the single room is unavailable and offered the VIP for IDR 400.000,- more expensive which is a ripped off!! They just want more money...) they just need to confirm the doctor's time and will call me again to re-confirm. But I'll have to check-in on the 12th. I hope there won't be any change. Second weekend is better so I have time to finish my work before I disappear for 2 weeks :p

Phew!! Didn't realize that other than the surgery itself I'll have to prepare for other stuff. For example, I will need flat shoes. He3x Other than high heels for work, I only have sneakers & sandals. Don't like flats, but have to have one now to go to work when I'm back to the office. And before I check-into the hospital I'll definitely have to cut my hair very short. Since there's no mom who can help me wash my hair, it'll be difficult for me to wash hair & have a careful shower (can't let water touch my surgery wound)... So I'll have to wash my hair in the kitchen sink for a month!! Ha3x Short hair will be easier. I'm thinking of getting Hyunjoong / Jaejoong style LOL

Oh, I'll have to do 1 month groceries too!! He2x Since that's my job and I won't be able to do that soon... at least 1 month after my surgery I'm sure I'd be able to go groceries shopping again... The thing that bother me most is that I won't be able to drive for at least 2 months. *sigh* Will be Taxi to and from work. When I have my appendicitis 4 years ago, it was my mom who drove me to work every single day, but now I'm not comfortable enought to let my dad drive in such heavy traffic. How inconvenient it might be but that's what it takes for speedy recovery.

Aaaaaaah, so many things to do... but at least I could use my time after surgery to finish reading those books that I'm too lazy to read! Ha3x

so...

2 weeks ago I felt abdominal pain for 3 days straight. Went to Medistra Hostpital before work, saw the internist, had a USG. Spent half a day at the hospital. The next day dropped by the hospital to take my result & went to see the internist again. She was suspecting that my endometrioid cyst was acting up again. Referred me to see the obgyn later in the evening on the same day. Got to the hospital again at 6:30pm, didn't get to see the doc until almost 10:00pm. Result? I have myoma or Uterine Fibroids... and not just one, he mentioned several from the look of my uterus. He suggested a surgery to remove both the cyst & the myoma.

Honestly, this time I was scared. Even until now I haven't decided to undergo the surgery or not. For the first time in my whole life I'm totally scared and unable to make decisions. When my mom was ill, I could still make decisions for her & the entire family knowing what's the consequences & what might be the result. But this time it's really hard. I asked my friend who had undergone the same procedure, she just told me: "Pray. If you're sure then go ahead. But don't do it unless you feel confident about it." And after a discussion with my boss' wife I decided to get a second opinion. Or even a third. But the surgery vs no surgery has to be 2:0 or 2:1. I'm still trying to find a good doctor, hopefully it's done before the end of next week cause I have to make decisions about it soon. If it's a yes, it should be early June. I keep praying and thanking God for everything. And whatever I have to go through in the end, I know that HE will take care of me.

Another thing... someone stole my bag from the car last night. I dropped by Hero Gatot Subroto to buy chicken. Just left the car for 10 minutes. When I got back I can't get the car keys into the key hole, when I tried to open it just opened. I was thinking that maybe I forgot to lock up before I went out? But then the compartment was opened, and my backpack was gone! What's inside the bag might be unimportant for some people (working notes, standard medical kit, etc), but I just hate the fact that for the years that I've been to that place (AT LEAST once a week) nothing ever happened to me and I was very confident that nothing's going to happen to my car since it's an old one. I thought people would target the expensive & luxurious card instead. Aaaaarrrghhh!! Other than my backpack, the thief also stole my CDMA phone that I put in the compartment. Luckily it's not expensive, but still it's annoying.

So here's what I lost inside the backpack:
- Working notes
- Phone book
- Name card case with name cards, hospital cards (from all 5 hospitals), insurance card, 1 credit card (I have it blocked right away), 1 ATM card (they can't get the money anyway since they don't know the PIN).
- My standard medical pack: Ponstan, inhaler & cooling five (for my bronchitis & sinus), aspirin, minyak telon, panadol menstrual, bandage (I got small cuts easily).
- Sewing Kit
- Nokia data cable
- Small laptop speaker
- 2 books of Taxi voucher
- Comb

Others:
-Nokia CDMA Phone

This morning I had to take a taxi to work, dad has to take the car to the car shed to fix the door & the automatic lock.

I don't want small things to ruin my day. I don't want anything at all to ruin my joy. What's done is done. What's gone is gone.

"Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."
I Thessalonians 5 :18

SO THANK YOU, LORD!!! I'm happy!!!