reunions

Somehow, I hate reunions for many reasons. But mostly because I don't feel the need to hang out with so many people whom I wasn't even close to back then in school or whatsoever *sigh* I've skipped so many reunions, be it high school's or college's. But this time I just can't get away. I challenged them to arrange something on MY convenient time. They did it. I asked them to limit the attendees to the same year / same class people only. They did it.

So tonight I'll have my college "small" reunion and another one with my high school classmates 2 weeks from now after I got back from my short holiday. I hope it's not gonna be a pain... and they won't ask me questions that I hate...

C'est la vie...

morning beat

What I listen in the morning on the way to work is very important. My mood for the day sometimes can depend on the music that I hear in the morning. There were times when I started listening to the radio, but that only lasted for about 3 months. I don't really like radios. I don't like the ads and I really hate to have to listen to music that I don't like ha3x

I avoid listening to mellow music in the morning, that would make my mood blue. I like to sing along and play my fingers to the beat. Lately I've been listening to this album a lot in the morning. There are so many upbeat songs in it. I feel so refreshed after listening to it in the morning :p What's your music to start the day?

relationships

Ever since I hit the twin digit a few month ago, looks like I get the big question at least once a week: "When will you get married?" Or some people were trying to say it in a better way: "Where's your boyfriend? Any plan for a wedding soon?" And it hit me worse then the previous question cause they know very well that I'm still single!

I'm not the type who would fuss over this kind of situation... I like being single and I enjoy my life, but that doesn't mean that I don't think about having my own family. I do. So what if I haven't found the right one? I don't want to be like some women who grabbed anybody that they think "OK" enough for them, got married, and regreted it the year after. Some says I'm being picky. I can't deny it. If I'm not picky, then I'd have gotten married long time ago. But then again, was he the right person for me? And it's not like I set an unbelievable standard! Believe me, some friends even said that it's too moderate. But there are certain value that I don't want to compromise.

One thing for sure that has changed in my standard is age. I used to expect to date older man. From the two "real" relationships that I've been through, only 1 was older (not the mention left the most bitter memory). The younger one didn't work out for many reasons (just a year younger), but mostly because I didn't want to continue the relationship despite his effort to got back together after a few years being apart. I have my reasons.

Then there were some opportunities... 1 almost got serious (meaning: going steady) -- a 5 year younger guy-- until I heard him say: "We can just date, right? No strings attached? I mean, I'm still young, I haven't thought about marriage or anything." That one really put it off. I wouldn't ask him to marry me in the next 5 years but surely there's a purpose in building the relationship?

Another older guy... I really put a high hope on this one. Then he dropped the bomb: "You're too independent & too mature for me. You can do everything by yourself. I need someone who needs me." I was like "Hellooooo?? I thought I heard too many time of guys complaining that their girlfriends are too clingy & dependent on them? That they just can't do anything without the boyfriends help. Who can't go to places by themselves." And yet, I'm too mature for them? I didn't get it.

I had a conversation with a good friend of mine. We happen to be the same age. And yet we face the same reality in relationships. And we wonder: "What kind of women do men actually prefered?" We still haven't got the answer. And we begin to feel that we don't care. When the time comes, when the right person appears, then it don't matter anymore. But for the time being, we're proud of being independent. We're proud of being who we are. And we don't want to get bothered again with what people say. Being single is fun. I'd rather be a happy single than a miserable married woman.

And being single means... I can still watch Satoshi as much as I want, like I can daydream about him every now and then (*_^)v LoL

Back to reality

The 1 week holiday for Lebaran now feels like a dream... 1 week holiday and I only had 1 morning when I could wake up late! (-_-)ZZZzzz 1 morning to check on the office, 3 mornings on retreat and another Sunday morning to meet The Father.

My 4th day at work and I already feel like I need another holiday... badly!! With the market condition lately, everybody seems to be on edge. I understand our company's future is hanging by a thread and you'll never know what's gonna happen tomorrow. We wouldn't even imagine that IDX would be suspend all transactions yesterday morning! To make things worse, despite cutting down the interest margin to save the country's economy like other countries' Central Bank did, Bank Indonesia (shamelessly) increase ours! What can be worse than being stabbed in the back by your own government? But I really don't appreciate people lashing out their emotions on me.

I never want to think badly of people, but now I begin to really hate some of them. God help me! And help our country!! Peace...