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Akako Hosokoawa

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Hang in there, Mom!!

Aaaargggh! I hate Jakarta traffic during the fasting month! There's not a single moment where I could see Sudirman road not packed with vehicles... bankers even got to meetings late most of the time :( This is not funny anymore... the busway feeder developtment is also another reason for the bad traffic, but let's hope it would be finished soon. Or I'll have to be late to work every morning.

Lately, I didn't realize that my mom has lost so much weight. No matter how sick she got, all this time she was always keeping a happy apprearance to me. Perhaps it's my selfishness & my own fear that the more I look at her, the more I will realize how much I have lost my old mom. The more I will understand what she has lost to her illness. The more I will see parts of her slipping away.

Instead of spending more time with her, I've been keeping a distance from her by spending more time in my own room than with her. By keeping myself busy with work, church activites & socializing with my friends. This is not something that I'm proud of, in fact, I'm ashamed of myself. But looks like my fear is greater than my love for her.

A few nights ago I decided to buy dinner on the way home from work so we could have dinner together (my mom, my dad & myself). That's when I saw her dress was slipping off her shoulder. When she turned around to get some rice, I could see the outline of her shoulder bone. I cried silently in my head while trying to keep a smiling face and made some conversations with my dad. I felt so bad and even more ashamed of myself. How many times had she been in pain and instead of trying to soothe her and keep her company during the night; I complained to her that I couldn't sleep listening to her whimpering. Asked her to take her medicine and to go to bed. Instead of sitting there with her in the dark, I brushed her away and cry inside my bedroom. I'M THE BIGGEST COWARD IN THE WORLD!!

Since that very night at the dinner table, I promised myself that I would care more about her. That I would listen to her. That I don't want to have any regrets when the time comes for her to go to heaven. I want to be the best daughter for her and to be daughter that she would not feel ashamed of.

So, despite the bad traffic, last night I went to the mall to buy her a couple of bras. She's been complaining that her underwears have become too large for her, she's not comfortable wearing her bra to church. It took me 1 hour to drive to the Mall (usually 10 mins, from Sudirman to Plaza Senayan), and another frustrating 2.5 hours to get home (usually 45 mins - 1 hour). I felt like I wanna take off my legs and sleep without it!

She was already asleep in her room when I got home around 10:30PM. So I put the bras on her bedside. And all the tiredness paid off when I woke up this morning and met her at the dining room. She had a big smile on her face and said: "The bras are wonderful! They fit me well!". I kept a cool face and said: "Good". But deep down inside, I'm very very glad that I could make her happy even just for a moment.

So... HANG IN THERE, MOM!! I'll always be around for you!!

wrong timing to get sick

Like the title, I picked the wrong time to get sick... Well, not that I want to get sick! But I didn't think that it's that serious, I thought it's just regular flu 'n cough like I always had. But this time the doc said that I need at least 5 days total rest, downed to 2 days after negotiation, which I can't make anyway no matter what. Aiyah, I have so many things to prpare before the boss going for 2 weeks long Biz trip!! (@_@) But I've promised my mom that I'd stay home during the weekend (except to church). I wish I was in better condition... I really wanna go KARAOKEEEE!!!!!! Channel & Pon, entertain me please!!!!

Movies

Like I mentioned in the previous entry, I intended to spend my holiday at home... N I did! haha Got to watched a couple of dorama that channel sent me, though I got to say some didn't meet my expectation.

Anyway, I hardly watch movie in the cinema. I just don't enjoy it as much as when I watch it at home. Some movies are better to watch at the cinema, with the great sound and all. But I prefer to enjoy it at home, with more pauses for toilet breaks, bigger seat (my bed, that is), more food & drinks (^_^). But while EL was here, I went out for movies twice in a week! The Simpsons, Harry Potter & The Order of The Phoenix and almost make a hattrick with Die Hard 4! But the last one switched to dinner instead hahaha

And tell you what, I don't remember anymore what movies I've watched at the cinema before that. I remember watched Spiderman at PIM 2 because I didn't really want to watch it but my cousin already bought it for me, so I just had to go. And the boss called a couple of times in the middle of the movie, tried to ignore them until my mom sent me a text message, told me that he was called the house and looked for me ^^;

Then I watched Transformers... twice v(^0^)v First with my little cousins from my mom's side, second time with little cousins from my dad's side. And I really enjoyed both shows... I used to love the cartoon when I was little. I still remember that I wore a brand new red backpack with Tranformers' hologram on my 1st day in Junior High hahaha It was so cool...

Funny though, I was never shy wearing stuff with my fave cartoon character even at this age. I still wear Naruto T-shirt (though it's now handed down to my little cousin since the material is too thick, a bit uncomfortable for me -- but am looking for a new better one), used to have a Daffy Duck & a Tweety shirt... other than that are phone straps (Naruto, Bleach), keychains... Oh, and my biggest obsession not coming true (yet): NARUTO WRISTWATCH!! Oh, I still regretted that day that I listened to Gale not to buy it at the Hilton Matsuri!! (T_T) I even looked for it while in Singapore (both Aug & Nov trips), but it's also sold out. *sigh* me and my Naruto obsession...

Back to movies. I don't think I'm going to watch any movie at the cinema for at least the next 2 months. Nothing interests me. But that, of course, unless a friend or relative buy the ticket for me and I got no choice. Until then, I'll never run out of doramas to watch at home anyway... Channel, you are one helluva supplier!!!

FUN, FUN, FUN!!!

Hello!!!

It's Friday again and gonna have another long nighttttttt... Plan to go somewhere a bit further from the city since EL will return to his homeland tomorrow :D He just can't wait, 2 weeks is more than enough for him to be in our lovely Jakarta. Too bad he's coming for work, not enough time to browse the city & go a bit outside town where the air is fresher (I hope) and at least not so many malls around (yeah right, says who?). Hopefully next time he could for holiday and we can go on a trip together, that is - with the whole gang (Gale & Wil).

Can't wait for the Governor Election next week... not because I'm that eager to elect, but because it's been decided to be a Public Holiday! Ha3x cruel me. And I plan to spend all day at home, watching movies, reading or just being lazy in my bedroom. I need it very badly, I've had flu for awhile and cough for 3 weeks now (@_@) Wish to take a day leave if possible, but I'm really saving the holiday for the trip at the end of this year. And suddenly... time just pass us by, it's gonna be December in a blink... and I'm so ready to pack and leave! (^o^)

Last Saturday we went out for dinner at this specific place. Being the only one sobber at the end of dinner, and yet everybody claimed that they're fine! But look at this silly pic of Will as a bunny! It was so much fun though. The food was okay, but the most important thing is that we all enjoy the short night out and no work involved! :p

Here are some of the other pics we took... I have chosen the normal ones though, I don't think I want to make the other "crazy pics" public consumption... don't want to get the wrong impression from you folks... now you are curious what pics are they, aren't you? Hahahahaha