Another 1st time

Yesterday was supposed to be my mom's birthday. When I woke up in the morning I didn't feel a bit sad, I thought I got over the sentimental part already... well, though not completely. But then I talked to my brother who also celebrated his birthday on the same day. He told me that he's sad to celebrate his birthday by himself for the 1st time. And suddenly I felt so lonely.

My mom was the kind of person who fuss over birthdays and stuff. She always remembered people's birthday and never missed a present or a cake. There will always be some birthday cake of some sort that she bought herself on her birthday :) But yesterday was different. No celebration, no cake, no morning kiss. I tried to think that it must be harder for my brother but still the loneliness was there. It didn't go away.

For the past few weeks I've been thinking about an old friend of mine and I missed her so much, especially yesterday. Perhaps because she knew my mother longer than most of my other close friends and there were moment we spent with each other's family. I long for our time together. I sent her a text message a couple of days before but didn't get a reply until (amazingly) yesterday. And she admitted that she's been thinking of me too. I cried behind the wheel when I read her message.

She also said: "tough time to adjust to a lot of 1st time.." Then I realized that there will be lots of "1st times of something without mom" that I'll go through in the future but I'm glad that my friend understood. I felt that we're connected againafter being away from each other for quite sometime. And it was also the 1st time that I felt so grateful to have someone who understood me even when we're apart. And she has helped me back on my feet again.

Arigatou. You know who you are.

Yatta!

Woohoo!! Finally... I'm going karaoke tomorrow after work T________T Though this time I'll go with a completely different pack than the usual, I hope it will be another enjoyable karaoke session. Full story & pictures will follow on Monday... hopefully...

PS:
I'm definitely singing A-RA-SHI tomorrow!!!

Hajimete no Kare!

Not the first curry (or "kare" as the Japanese pronounce it) that I ate but the first kare that I cooked v(^__^)v I've bought the curry blocks sometime ago, but didn't really get the chance to try it. Then yesterday after church I went groceries shopping with dad & thought of finally cook it. When I got home I tried to find the recipe... I knew it's somewhere in Hanalala back issues, but the stupid me didn't even remember which issue hehehe

After trying in vain to find it in the last 10 issues I finally gave up and return to google hahahaha 1st recipe that I found somehow seemed a bit complicated, but the 2nd recipe was much more simple so I tried that one. Sent a text message to Pon-chan & Channel to wish me luck... And voila!! Not exactly the La Huma taste but it will do... Ureshii...

Hot & Healthy

Woohoo!!!

We're going for a Hot Pot tonight! Trying a place we've never been before somewhere at Senopati with some rare companies :) So far 4 people confirmed, I hope to have more... The more the merrier... the more to eat too...

Add:

In the end there were only the 2 of us, but we enjoyed it anyway ;)

Singing is my remedy

I just bought a new guitar last Sunday!! Yeah!! It's time to rock again!

Don't get the wrong idea, I'm suck at it! Hahaha At least I knew the keys and am able to play some of my favorite song... in standard that is, not like the records :) It's the singing that helps me tune in with the bad guitar playing.

Since I was little, I love singing so much. Was in School Choir in junior high, school band in high school, the only female singer in college who sings White Lion, Winger, Tesla and those old rock music though when I'm by myself I prefer Danny Tate or Mitch Malloy or Beverley Craven or Joshua Kadison. But mostly I sing in church. I'm an alto but once for a gospel choir competition, we lacked of bass singer so there I was the only female the back with the boys singing the bass part hahaha

I don't think I have a good voice, but my singing mentor (who taught me a lot about music) said that I'm a powerful singer. So whenever I'm singing in a group, they have to turn down my mic's volume and turn up the others! :p Really, it's embarassing sometimes but very helpful when there's a blackout and the mic doesn't work ;0) (another lame excuse...)

Singing is really therapeutic for me. And an indication of my mental state for my parents. My father used to say that he can guess how I'm feeling whenever I sing. I tend to pick songs that suit my feelings at that time. So when I'm being quiet and not make any sound, he said that's an alert for him that I must be feeling real bad or really sick hehehe

Singing also helps me get through the bad times. Even now when I'm feeling lonely and missing my mom so much, I'll sing my heart out and I'll feel much better... though many times I end up crying and can't finish the song. The night before my mom's funeral, I sang a song that I felt describe her life best by her coffin on the last service held by my church. I tried my best to finish it, my voice cracked a little in the end but as the song came to an end... I could feel my mom's presence beside me. I felt at peace.

My voice is not as it used to be, especially since I had sinus & got flu so many times lately. It's a torture for me if I can not sing when I cough or catch cold, I feel soooo down. But whenever possible, I sing. My senior in college used to hate being in the same car with me. You know, I can't help from singing whenever I hear a song that I know. Be it in the mall or the hospital, if I know the song then I'll sing along. In the end he always turned off the radio and played heavy metal - something that I can't sing at all! LoL How stupid can that be.

Well, everybody has a different way to getaway and make themselves feel better. For me, singing is my remedy. Let's rock!!